Sorry about the lack of correspondence yesterday: I was in one of my surly fuck-the-human-race moods. I feel this way pretty regularly, though ever since my last traumatic brain injury I seem to get like this much more often. I'm probably a textbook definition of a misanthrope: I seriously believe I'm surrounded by idiots and morons. In fact, I believe we humans are by nature evil narcissistic animals driven by fear and lust, always looking for something beautiful in the world to devour and destroy and always on the hunt for a fellow human to victimize in some way. Ours is a graveyard world of restless zombies with perpetual boners.
That's one hellishly bleak worldview, isn't it? I suppose it makes more sense when you understand that I'm a product of childhood abuse and because I never learned a better way to live in the world as an adult. Seriously, after I turned 18 I spent most of my time either living on the streets or in shitty housing projects (which really are just like living outside, except with walls, a roof, and doors — but it's the same people and the same bullshit). Living in poverty or abject dereliction really is traumatizing; it's effectively not much different than being in combat or incarcerated. And, of course the self medicating didn't help any … but, hey, I've managed a week clean and sober! Congratulate me, dammit! Haha, just kidding: I still have a long way to go.
Speaking of journeys, it looks like you finally got Israel to stop killing innocent civilians in Gaza. Yeah, I'm one of those guys — Israel’s been a Zionist apartheid state since the Six Day War. (When I worked at the library at Portland Community College one of my co-workers was in a wheelchair because when he was nine years old he was paralyzed from the waist down from an Israeli soldier’s bullet; all he did was throw rocks!) It's not even eye-for-an-eye retaliation they engage in! What they do more resembles some of the “street justice” I've seen in my neighborhood … like when a guy firebombed a trailer because the guy living it fucked his girlfriend. Fucking savages.
…And here come those damn helicopters of yours again. How'd you know I was about ready to go to bed? I can't believe some assholes posted flyers encouraging portlanders to throw a “laser party” … this last saturday, I think? That totally sounds like Antifa, doesn't it? Any dildohead who pulls that kind of shit needs to have their balls roasted over the coals — that’s not protesting, that can kill people! (It's not like helicopters can fly by themselves.) I assure you, as someone who will probably attend the No Kings march on the 18th, most of us Portlanders hate those wannabe terrorists almost as much as you do.
